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Power Element Quiz

Well they got it partly right...

Your Power Element is Fire

Your power color: red

Your energy: hot

Your season: spring

Like a fire, you are full of power and light.
A born leader, you easily draw people toward you.
You are full of courage and usually up for anything dangerous.
You have a huge ego and love to be the center of attention.

What Your Soul Really Looks Like
You are very passionate and quite temperamental. While you can be moody, you always crave comfort. You are a very grounded, responsible, and realistic person. People may not want to hear the truth from you, but they're going to get it. You believe that people see you for how you are, not how you look. But deep down, you know that's not exactly true. Your near future is still unknown, and a little scary. You'll get through wild times - and you'll textually enjoy it. For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Oct. 26th, 2007

Sometimes life just amazes me. The unexpected things in life truly brighten me up sometime. An unexpected kind word, gift or even a motivational talk.

Last night gaming was canceled. Too bad, but life goes on. I went and hung out with Brian, Hannah, Raven, and Amanda. We watched a movie that was so bad that I commented, "I think that movie gave me cancer!" It was bad, but there were funny moments to it too. It was called Kung Phooey! While talking to Brian I came to the conclusion that I probably should have tried to go into psychotherapy. I mean that seems like something that I could have done for a life...

My bosses have perceived my behavior in a different way. They have come to me and sought out to find out what is going down with me. Lately I had been terrified that I was going to be shit canned. The bosses took my worry as I did not like my job and that I was going to be jumping ship on them. In fact I found out that they do not want me to quit working for them, because I have shown with my skill that I am capable, I guess...

Tonight is movie night and it is still undetermined if it is canceled or not. I suspect not, but again we will see. I am going as The Flasher! Trench coat and well you know.

My Christmas shopping is started. I have at least 10 more gifts to get. If only I could think of what to get these people...

What color are you?

You Are a Blue Crayon

Your world is colored in calm, understated, deep colors.
You are a loyal person, and the truest friend anyone could hope to find.
On the inside, you tend to be emotional and even a bit moody.
However, you know that people depend on you. So you put on a strong front.

Your color wheel opposite is orange. Orange people may be opinionated, but you feel they lack the depth to truly understand what they're saying.





Musings

I have been down the past couple days, but things are improving. No kicking myself (well, maybe a little, but trying really hard not to). Mostly insecurities about myself and my future. Doing what I have to do to reach the point of not having to think about it so much. Wish I could shut my brain off sometimes or at least filter my thoughts. Fare well.

Poetic Musings:
The evening fire burns bright,
and shows what's hidden in the night,
Clouds are beginnging to form and readying to
ease themselves of the burden of what they carry.
Drops of rain continue to fall
long after the clouds have parted.
When the falling rain finishes,
the sun's rays shine on what is left.
With the sunshine comes a brand new day, growth of
life and a brand new storm yet to come.

Recent Mental Musings

Ups and downs lately. Nothing much to speak of. I made a huge pot of chili yesterday, and, because of aforementioned pot, invited my parents over to sample it. Things went smoothly at first. I even did a little preliminary tidying up. The night ended with my mother all but accusing my dad of loving that my brothers are fighting amongst each other. However you put it, I just did not feel good how the tone of the night ended. I was really brought down by the entire evening, and drained entirely. That and the chili did a hell of a dance on my digestive tract.

Anyway, last time I tried to reach a calm and relaxed state, I found things were happening a mile a minute. I got so many things going down in my head I couldn't keep it all straight. For instance here are a few things that flashed threw my head that I remember:
The death of William Shatner (I know he is still alive...)
A group ninjas attacking a BMV
Hundreds of Axes, Swords, and Knives Flipping through the air towards an unseen target.
A Silver Two Dimensional Triangle point up on a black background rotating left to right with an eye on one side and a hollow space (See through the middle) on the other
Taking a Flight on an airplane that was more uncomfortable than normal.
Blood (lots of the stuff...)
Blue carpeting
An Indian scalping a cowboy
A forest scene where human beings are being hunted, but I don't remember what by.

As I said busy...

Stupid stuff...

I guess it is time for an update. So here we go.

Got the new car. It is neat, although I am not quite as enthusiastic as I am supposed to be apparently. It is just a car to me. A mode of conveyance that only matters when you don't have one. To me it matters very little whether it is new or used so long as I can get to where I am going without any trouble. Anyway, that said I like my new car even if I am still getting used to the maneuvering it and parking it.

Also in the news I have purchased (finally) renters insurance. I gave them my credit card number (which will be getting canceled in November due to my new platinum card coming in the mail) and they are sending the paperwork to me finally.

As far as my brothers are concerned I have no idea what is going on. I am completely out of the loop on that one and I think it is the place to be.

Nothing to gab on about where my romantic options are concerned. The more things change the more they stay the same. As far as my whole situation goes I am starting exhibit symptoms similar to the40 year old virgin yet again.

I have been practicing playing my piano again. Just not very well. Other than that I guess there is just not much to speak of.

Right at this moment I think I am on the brink of a cold or something. My nose is running, my back is sore, my head is throbbing, and my chest is congested. My office is uninspiring and my job is unfulfilling except my bank account. I really want to go home and sleep the rest of the day away, but I have way too much left to do today. Biggest on the agenda is to return the rental car sitting in front of my parents house and even that may be a difficulty.

The last few weeks have been some of the best weeks for me ever. Even with the car crash. I may have been slightly frustrated and annoyed, but I was also unthinkably jovial and incredulously happy. I hope the good times keep on rolling, but I won't hold my breathe. Something is bound to occur soon enough to bring me down into the mire again. Even if it does one must remember you have to take the good with the bad.

Some stupidity:

"Outside consultants sought for test of gas chamber."
- Ad in Arizona Republic

"Golden, Ripe, Boneless Bananas, 39 Cents A Pound."
- Ad in the "Missoulian" by Orange Street Food Farm

"FOR RENT: CONDOM... ONLY US$650."
- Ad in Jakarta Post, should have read Condo

"How to store your baby walker: First, remove baby."
- Anonymous Manufacturer

"Traffic is very heavy at the moment, so if you are thinking of leaving now, you'd better set off a few minutes earlier."
- Anonymous Traffic Report

"Politics gives guys so much power that they tend to behave badly around women. And I hope I never get into that."
- Bill Clinton, former U.S. president

"Inbreeding is how we get championship horses."
- Carl Gunter, Louisiana state representative, explaining why he was fighting a proposed antiabortion bill that allowed abortion in cases of incest.

"My sister's expecting a baby, and I don't know if I'm going to be an uncle or an aunt."
- Chuck Nevitt, North Carolina State basketball player, explaining to Coach Jim Valvano why he appeared nervous at practice.

"Lack of brains hinders research."
- Columbus Dispatch, Headline

"We have a firm commitment to NATO, we are a *part* of NATO. We have a firm commitment to Europe. We are a *part* of Europe."
- Dan Quayle, former U.S. Vice President

"It is wonderful to be here in the great state of Chicago"
- Dan Quayle, former U.S. Vice-President

"It's time for the human race to enter the solar system!"
- Dan Quayle, former U.S. Vice President on the concept of a manned mission to Mars

"I have opinions of my own --strong opinions-- but I don't always agree with them."
- George Bush, former U.S. President

"It is white."
- George W. Bush, when asked what the White house was like by a student in East London

"And now, will y'all stand and be recognized."
- Gib Lewis, Texas Speaker of the House, to a group of people in wheelchairs on Disability Day

"I'd run over my own mother to win the Super Bowl."
- Joe Jacoby, NFL Football player, of the Washington Redskins

"To win, I'd run over Joe's mom too."
- Matt Millen, NFL Football player, of the Raiders

"If you or any member of your family has been killed..."
- Lawyer commercial on TV, Orlando, Florida
The craziness didn't end when I left my previous residence. Today, I found out that my brothers got into another fight. The fight started in a bar which my older brother was the bouncer for. Apparantly heated words were exchanged and my older brother kicked them (younger bro and his gf) out of the bar. They went to my parents house and went to bed. When my older brother got home he woke them up to pick up where they left off at the bar. More words were exchanged and my older brother popped the "girl!!!!" in the mouth. My mom went down and broke it up and younger bro and gf left with my dad and went to a friends house. After they were there, the girl called the cops. When the cops showed, my older brother slammed the door in their faces, locked it and basically started pacing through the house. The cops then began to beat on the front and back doors. My Dad came home and just let them in rather than letting them kick in the door. At this point the cops then tried to take him into custody and he refused to go quietly. My mom then went downstairs to try and calm him down and it wasn't working. The cops then pulled out the shiny new taser for my brother and she starts acting like a human shield for him. At last he goes and she wants to bail him out immediately. My dad said no. He is no longer allowed over there due to the fact my dad doesn't want him there, because he believes they will get into it soon as he gets home.

Anyway, as I said previous, I am glad I no longer live there.

Solomon Grundy

The poem that is the origin of the most famous DC comic book zombie ever.

Solomon Grundy,
Born on a Monday,
Christened on Tuesday,
Married on Wednesday,
Took ill on Thursday,
Grew worse on Friday,
Died on Saturday,
Buried on Sunday.
That was the end of Solomon Grundy.

My guess is that it is used for several purposes. One since it is a nursery rhyme for children it is used to teach the days of the week. Next in a more thought provoking method is to show how fleeting life can be and that we must use the time we have wisely. One thing everyone should keep in mind though is that regardless of what today brings (be it sickness, health, poverty, prosperity, happiness, sorrow etc...) tomorrow will always come.

Going to my happy place...

No more Stephen Lynch for a good long while now. I am just drained. You can only listen to it for so long before it starts to get annoying. Anyway, something feels amiss in the aether. I don't think this is something bad or good. Just something strange. Of course what do I know. I get a feeling now and again and most of the time nothing ever comes of it.

As far as I go, everything is going fine. I am glad to be as healthy as I have ever been and my knee seems to be healed up after five days. I suspect that the strangeness is only the perception I am keeping currently. I can't tell you what I am making of things. I am completely befuddled by it. I am letting go of some of my recent ponderings and just going to be happy with what I have and that everyone is (loosely used) okay. I am tired of talking about the same old thing all the time. At least I know I am a capable brick wall. No guilt, no hard feelings, and apparently no common sense, since I dropped my pants on command in front of several people, cause they said it was my turn. I even got this requested of me from someone several days later (on movie night), and I really didn't want to scare some of the gathered folks so I deemed it would be in bad taste to put myself on display again. That and they were all talk, cause they really didn't want a look.

I really don't know anymore about anything. Sometimes my brain works on overtime, and sometimes my brain never clocks in. I just don't get as many good ideas as I used to get. I am incurring lots of loss of late. I really don't know why this is, but I guess it comes down to my own habits. Whenever I look in the mirror I look skinnier in my eyes. I really think I am getting skinnier. Maybe it is time to get on the scales and weigh in. Certainly all the walking around has helped me.

At least when the last nuke was dropped on me, I didn't lose myself, beat myself up, or even get upset by it. It definitely had the potential for a bad reaction. You guys would have been proud of me.

By my recent musings and thoughts I guess I am mostly talk like most other people. I will talk big game, but when it comes down to performing on the field, well I am lacking that extra push to get over the hurdles. I am by no means giving up. I am just going to keep going so long as I can and take what I am given. Life is not over yet.

Love you guys and appreciate all the favors that have been done for me.

Car Accident


That is not my vehicle in the pic, just so you know.

Well the big news is that I was in a car accident Wednesday. No worries though. No one was badly injured in the accident. I came away with just a banged up knee, and my passenger Amanda came away with (it seems) whiplash. All manner of thing has happened since. My truck is out of commission until further notice. But I am skipping some of the funnier parts of the story. So here is the comedy behind the night.

I called home to let my family know I was in an auto accident, and got my older brother. When I told my older brother that I was in an auto accident, and asked him if he could get our dad to call me when he gets a chance, he apparently took that as a cue to call my mom (who is currently in Connecticut) and leave a generic message saying the following: "Adam was in a car crash and his truck is totaled, talk to you later, Shawn." She called back with, "OH MY GOD, IS HE OKAY? WHAT IS GOING ON?" My dad got the chance to tell her I am fine, but the truck is currently out of commission.

The paramedics were talking to me, and at one point they said, you are rather cheerful for someone who has just been in such a bad looking accident. I just say, "it is no big thing to me. I am just hoping everyone is okay. Insurance should take care of everything else."

When we got to Grandview we got the initial check on Amanda, and got her off the back brace. Once that was done, she said she needed to go to the restroom. I went and found a Doctory looking fellow and told him she needed to to go the restroom. He said bedpan is probably my best bet. Seriously, he said that. I then notified him that she was no longer on the back brace anymore. He then said, "OH, well never mind then; She can go to the regular bathroom." I go inform her and start escorting her to the proper place when he comes up and hands her a cup and says, "Fill her up." He chuckles a few times and we are like, oh, good one (hehe). He then says, "No, I am serious." We are like, WHAT!?! Okay, whatever. Anyway, after we found out everyone was good, we started to leave. At which point a nurse stops me and says you can't go out the Ambulance entrance anymore (would have been my tenth and final trip). I say, "But we aren't coming back in this time. We aren't coming back." Too bad, so we go out the proper entrance which is round about the hospital.

I got a call last night from the insurance agent who determines whether my truck is totaled or repairable. She gives me the news that it will take until at least Wednesday until they know that the truck is totaled. So, it seems I am going to be forced to get a rental car. Anyway, I very peeved at that point with the insurance agent was cursing loudly in my head. As I was hanging up, I verbally said fucking bitch. I immediately think, oh god, I hope she didn't hear that. hehe, eghhhhhh.

Anyway, the last of the funny I got a drunken dial from my younger brother this morning at 6:30 A.M. Apparently, my dad was up getting ready to come and get me and my bro stumbled in and asked why are you up. He said I have to go get you brother. He was in an accident on Wednesday. He took that as dial you brother and tell him I am coming to get him. So here is how the conversion goes.
"Hello."
"Hey."
"Who is this."
"Matt. I heard you were in an accident. Are you okay?"
"Yeah, just a busted up knee. I was asleep when you called. That is why I sound so funny."
"Dad asked me to call and tell you he is on his way. He is just walking out the door."
"Really? He is leaving a little early, but okay."
"Yeah, I was just calling to see if you were okay. He just left."
"Okay, well I better get going then. I need to be ready by the time he gets hear."
"Okay, I am glad you are okay. Bye"
"Bye."

When my Dad arrives 25 minutes later, I am waiting outside for him. He asks, why are you out here? I say, Matt called me and told me you were on your way. He actually woke me up.
What, I didn't tell him to call you. He stumbled in drunk this morning, and asked me what I was doing up so early. I told him I was going to get you. I never asked him to call you. He went so far as to ask me to give him a ride back to his car. I told him to go get some sleep. When he wakes up I might take him to his car.

So there you go. All the comedy associated with my recent car crash.